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Quality of Consciousness

It’s about the quality.

Three personal values, or metaprograms:

  1. Maintain a high quality of consciousness.
  2. Take radical responsibility for every aspect of your life.
  3. Design and implement a system of functional vitality.

The three are interdependent and intertwined, but this post focuses on the first.

Everything we do, we do to alter our state of mind. The motivation behind every external gain (both selfish and altruistic) is the feeling we expect to get from the result. We do things because we expect the result to be happiness, satisfaction, cessation of pain, euphoria, contentment, peace, or some other desirable sensation, emotion, or state of mind.

I call this the psychedelic realization. It’s what Timothy Leary was getting at when he said “tune in, turn on, and drop out.” You don’t have to follow society’s implicit and explicit “live this way” rules (ie. the “rat race”) in order to receive the feel-good rewards of high-status, wealth, etc. Instead, you can engage your neural circuitry more directly. In Leary’s own words (from Flashbacks):

‘Turn on’ meant go within to activate your neural and genetic equipment. Become sensitive to the many and various levels of consciousness and the specific triggers that engage them. Drugs were one way to accomplish this end. ‘Tune in’ meant interact harmoniously with the world around you – externalize, materialize, express your new internal perspectives. ‘Drop out’ suggested an elective, selective, graceful process of detachment from involuntary or unconscious commitments. ‘Drop Out’ meant self-reliance, a discovery of one’s singularity, a commitment to mobility, choice, and change. Unhappily my explanations of this sequence of personal development were often misinterpreted to mean ‘Get stoned and abandon all constructive activity’.

So how do we maintain a high quality of consciousness? How do we feel good (and fully awake, aware, and alive), directly and immediately?

Like Leary, I don’t think that taking consciousness as the primary consideration necessarily leads to navel-gazing, inactivity, self-obsession, substance abuse, or disengagement. If we really take our own state of mind seriously, then the more likely result is proactive behavior, including getting stuff done, taking charge of our lives, planning, being more engaged with the world, being conscious in our relationships, and generally being more real, alive, intelligent, aware, and powerful.

In regards to mind-altering substances, there’s a fine line between better-living-through-chemistry, and numbing out. If we’re experiencing negative fall-out (hangovers, sleeplessness, difficulty concentrating, mood swings, etc.) from any chemicals we’re using, then what we’re getting is crappy-living-through-chemistry. I like my coffee, but I don’t want to be the caffeine spider.

Web spinning – no drugs vs. caffeine.

For what it’s worth, here my own list of how to maintain a high quality of consciousness. Despite my total atheism, this list cribs heavily from religious texts and teachings (mostly Buddhism, Christianity, and Judaism — the three traditions I’m somewhat familiar with). None of the concepts are complicated or secretive, but they’re all difficult to implement consistently. That’s why I have a list in the first place.

1. Open Heart

What does it mean to keep your heart open? It means that you’re vulnerable to pain and hurt, as well and pleasure and joy. Opening your heart means increasing your emotional bandwidth. You can’t have a symphony of feeling if only one note is available to you.

Living with an open heart is an emotional force multiplier. By practicing compassion, forgiveness, gratitude, and courage, we remove roadblocks to our own energy, vitality, motivation, love of life, and power.

Living with an open heart also means we’re more vulnerable emotionally. When we increase the bandwidth, we also let in anger, fear, disappointment, loss, grief, shame, envy, and all the “bad stuff.”

These “negative” emotions are debugging tools for our brain. If we don’t let them in, we have no idea what’s wrong inside. It’s better to fully experience and process your emotions than to be numb. Numbness (narrow bandwidth) results in a dull affect, no joy, and inertia when it comes to action. Emotional repression can also lead to muscle pain (John Sarno’s theory is that repressed emotions leads to chronic muscle tension which leads to reduced blood flow which leads to chronic pain — I’ve personally experienced major pain relief from simply allowing myself to feel my own feelings).

Emotional processing can mean talking it out, doing therapy, journal writing, and the like, but it can also mean taking action in the world. How can you fight injustice if you can’t experience anger? How can you be a better person if you can’t allow yourself to feel shame for your past wrongs?

2. Mind Like Water

Having a tranquil mind doesn’t mean being sleepy or spaced out. It means effectively controlling your attention, keeping your conscience clear, managing distractions, and processing information effectively.

David Lynch compares meditation to tooth-brushing. If I’m willing to dedicate a few minutes each day to keeping my teeth clean, why not do the same thing for my mind? Mental hygiene.

Another part of “mind like water” is having and consistently using an organizational system that fits your personality. There’s no one-size-fits-all, but David Allen’s Getting Things Done is a great starting point.

Reams have been written about managing distractions. Some are people are capable of truly simultaneous multi-tasking, but most of us are just deluding ourselves. In practice, for myself, managing distractions means 1) picking just a few priority items to get done each each day, 2) thinking ahead in terms of childcare and other family obligations, and 3) using LeechBlock to make sure I don’t fall down the social media sinkhole.

Is my conscience clear? Never perfectly. There’s always some crappy thing I’ve done, some way I could have treated someone better. But for the most part I try to be decent to other people, and to apologize and make it right when I do mess up. When my conscience is mostly clear is when I’m most effective and focused.

What else? Non-attachment. My peace of mind shouldn’t depend on external conditions or outcomes. I can’t control everything (nor would I want to — a single agent game would be boring). I can’t totally control other people’s perceptions, feelings, or actions (unless I use coercion, which is too costly in almost all cases). So in some cases I surrender to things I can’t control. This isn’t passivity or fatalism — it’s just realism and picking my battles. We aren’t gods and puppet-masters, we are limited agents with limited powers. To attempt total control is pathological.

3. Empowerment

Most people vastly underestimate their own capacity to determine their own lives and to change the world. Most of us are eager to give up our power to others. This is reasonable. It requires tremendous effort to actually visualize a better life for yourself, and a better world. There are too many variables. It hurts the brain. Inertia is much easier!

Still, empowerment is a crucial part of quality of consciousness. Even if our striving comes to nothing, the neurogenesis is worth it.

You could call it radical self reliance. You could call it living your best possible life. Not settling for what others are willing to give you, but instead creating exactly what you think is worth creating. Not coasting through with what you already know, but straining to learn (and use) new knowledge and new skills. It takes enormous effort, it involves multiple failures, and there’s no guarantee of any success whatsoever.

Is self-empowerment worth it? Is it too much bother?

It’s worth it because it keeps your brain fresh. It’s worth it because it gives you something to push against, and to know you’re there in the world.

Take Away

I don’t think just deciding to be happy works very well. We might just end up with forced cheeriness, which is creepy. And if we’re depressed, meditation or a to-do list system isn’t going to instantly snap us out of it (there are many effective approaches to treating depression — personally I like the “become more paleolithic” method).

But I do think we can decide to prioritize quality of consciousness, and take both internal and external actions to do so. It’s not necessarily the path to happiness (that has more to do with friendships, community, and marriage — in other words happiness is almost entirely about social interaction [TED talk]). But if we focus on quality of consciousness, our relationships (both personal and community) will improve, quickly and radically.

Unrelated News

In other news, my group Momu has a new album out. It’s only available on Beatport at the moment, which is a little pricey. If you like the music but can’t afford the Beatport price, the general release date is August 15. The iTunes version will be cheaper, and it will be available on Spotify as well (free).

The Emotional Force Multiplier

Motivational hotfix.

In an earlier post, Force Multipliers In Life, I wrote about how some behaviors and habits can make us more effective in every life area.  The post focused on increasing biological and organizational energy, including:

  • Consuming Less Poison (and better fuel)
  • Getting Really Fucking Organized (GRFO)
  • Ninja Training (customized exercise and meditation habits)

I also mentioned a fourth area — an attitudinal adjustment that can increase our effectiveness and happiness.

What Makes Us Do What We Do?  Are We Free?

Everything we do, whether we understand it or not, is an attempt to alter the chemistry of our brains.  Of course we have real world “motivations” — we want to create things, help people, have sex, eat well, make the world a better place, accumulate power, get rich, or whatever.  Some of these motivations appear to be selfish, others altruistic.  Ultimately, though, all behavior is selfish.  We do things because our brain chemistry compels us to do them.  This is the psychedelic realization.

People that have this realization don’t stop engaging with the world — they may in fact engage even more — but they do realize that all motivation comes from within.  We do things because we’re programmed to do them.  Some of this programming is low level/subconscious (instinct, reflexes, addictions, compulsions, habits) and some of it is more complex/conscious  (conscience, values, reason, etc.).  While we never completely control (or even understand) our own behavior, we still have the option of reprogramming ourselves.  If you approach the question of free will as a spectrum (as opposed to “we have it or we don’t”), then metaprogramming is a range of techniques that most expands our freedom.  In other words, we’re most free when we take responsibility for our own programming.

Quality of Consciousness

In one sense, all we have in life is our moment-to-moment experience of the world (including our experience of our own mind, as thoughts and memories).  Quality of consciousness is how we feel, and our state of awareness, at any given moment.  How lucid are we?  How happy?  What’s our emotional state?  Confused?  Determined?  Angry?  Excited?  Hopeless?  There is no shortage of ways to describe subjective consciousness.  What can we know about quality of consciousness?  A couple points stand out to me:

  • Quality of consciousness is extremely important, on both an individual and societal level
  • Quality of consciousness is very difficult to control directly

If we can positively influence our quality of consciousness, we have a huge force multiplier on our hands.  Morale, happiness, confidence — whatever you want to call it — a feel-good boost immediately carries over into every aspect of our lives.

Limits to “Snap Out Of It” Consciousness Changes

Sometimes we feel bad, and there’s very little we can do about it.  A few weeks ago I was lying in bed and I began to feel a deep sense of unease.  This feeling worsened to a state of dread, approaching horror.  Why did I feel so bad?  It occurred to me that if I felt this way all the time, I wouldn’t want to go on living.  I couldn’t imagine having the mental fortitude to tolerate such a negative, painful state of consciousness for a long amount of time.

Ten minutes later I was puking up a fruit salad rainbow into the toilet bowl.  Turns out I had that 4-hour stomach bug that was going around.

As I lay on the cool bathroom floor, enjoying that oh-so-blissful feeling that is I’m-no-longer-about-to-throw up, it was clear to me that sometimes we have no option but to roll with what life deals us.  Our quality of consciousness sometimes isn’t even within our indirect control.  There was no way I could have “decided” to feel better until that particular illness had taken its course.

We should keep this in mind when we (or those we love) go through difficult times, experiencing anxiety, depression, or other negative states of consciousness.  There are things that we can do to improve our state of mind, but none of them will work instantaneously.  Usually, we can’t just “snap out of it.”

Forced cheeriness just makes us feel hollow and anxious.

Why Deciding To Be Happy Doesn’t Work

If we try to force a positive mental state, we’re more likely to induce unease and anxiety than happiness.  Forced cheeriness isn’t the same as happiness — it’s more likely to be obnoxious and drive people away.  This article discusses how pursuing happiness directly can actually make us feel worse.

The best we can do is approach happiness indirectly.  Researchers that have looked into the nuts and bolts of what creates happiness (Stefan Sagmeister presents a good overview) have discovered that many aspects of self and life that are commonly associated with happiness don’t actually matter (including income level, attractiveness, and superior health).  What does matter is friendships, marriage, and being part of a regular community or group (could be church, or any type of weekly group activity).

We can also take an empirical approach to happiness, noticing what makes us happy and what makes us miserable (and doing more of the former and less of the latter).  I keep lists of both categories.  I actually look at them too — to remind me never to go down a particular road again.  The “Don’t Do” list includes items such as “Never shop at Safeway at night” and “Never work remotely with a slow internet connection” and “Don’t answer client emails after 6 pm” and “Avoid large crowds of sports fans.”  On the positive side are writing, music production, and eating dinner with friends and/or family.  It’s not rocket science, but I still find I need constant reminders to do more of the fun stuff and less of the not-fun stuff.

So … better/more social connections and choosing activities that we enjoy — these are external approaches that improve our quality of consciousness.  But are there internal actions we can take that reliably and consistently raise our consciousness level, increase our effectiveness, and make us happier?

The Emotional/Attitudinal Force Multiplier

I strongly believe that if we choose to live life with an open heart, this will consistently and significantly boost our quality of consciousness.

I think there are three components to the emotional or attitudinal stance of open-heartedness, including:

  • Forgiveness
  • Gratitude
  • Compassion

Unfortunately, there are many misconceptions about what each of these mental practices involves.  These misconceptions create resistance that prevents us from taking advantage of the emotional bounty that comes with a shift towards open-heartedness.

South Africa's Truth and Reconciliation Commission

Resistance Towards Forgiveness

Forgiveness simply means that you accept whoever has wronged you (or whoever you think has wronged you) as a flawed human being, and let your rage towards them slowly and naturally dissolve.

Forgiveness does not mean:

  • being a doormat
  • not taking appropriate steps to protect yourself in the future
  • dropping legal charges
  • not seeking justice
  • getting back together/reconciling
  • forgetting what happened

Forgiveness does mean that you stop pouring energy into rage, and that you let go of your mental construct of being a victim.  It takes time, and usually the choice to forgive needs to be made multiple times.  If we don’t make this choice, then rage, the desire for vengeance, and a feeling of powerless victimhood can steal years (or decades) of our lives.

If we do manage to forgive, we free up an enormous amount of energy to heal and reconstruct from whatever injury has been done.  Instead of an “eye for an eye,” go get yourself a bionic eye.  Living well is the best revenge.

Resistance Towards Gratitude

The primary resistance to gratitude comes from a lack of a satisfying answer to the question “Who should I be grateful to?”

Not all of us believe in a deity.  Personally I fall somewhere along the atheist/agnostic spectrum.  But this doesn’t stop me from experiencing the feeling of gratitude.  I’m thankful for my family, my friends, my health, my work, and plenty of other things.

Basically, gratitude is looking at your life and realizing how lucky you are.  No matter how bad you have it, it only takes a little imagination to imagine a much worse fate.

Is this so obvious that I shouldn’t even be writing about it?  I wouldn’t, except for the fact that there are so many miserable fucks out there driving fancy cars, in perfect health, with money in the bank, feeling sorry for themselves because some girl didn’t call them back.  Or because it’s raining.  Or because they didn’t get a bonus at work.  Or whatever!  Get over it — be grateful for the bounty in your life.

Resistance Towards Compassion

As it turns out, when you live life as a human being, you’re always fucking somebody over.  There’s no way around it.

Even if you’re a do-gooder vegan who has donated a kidney to charity and has a negative carbon footprint, you’re still taking up space on the damn planet.  You’re preventing wildlife from thriving in the space you inhabit.  You’re consuming resources while others go hungry.  Valuable field mouse habitat was destroyed to grow the quinoa in your dumpster-dived energy bar.

I ride my bike to reduce time in the car, and I buy humanely-treated animal products whenever possible.  Still, I’m a first-world car-driving meat-eater.  I’m part of the problem, and I know it.  Underpaid Chinese laborers made this nice laptop I’m typing on.  The Ecuadoran field worker who picked the banana I just ate was probably paid even less.

Most of us think we’re good people, but at the same time we know some of the things we do result in cruelty to animals, destroying the environment, or encouraging unfair labor practices.  One way to deal with this cognitive dissonance is to close our hearts a little to the suffering of others (both people and animals).

The problem with this approach is that it deadens us.  If we turn off our empathy (because it hurts too much, or because it disturbs our image of ourselves), then we feel less alive.

We resist compassion because compassion is messy.  Compassion for other creatures forces us to look at our complex relationships with other people, animals, and the environment.  Those relationships are full of unfairness, and sometimes cruelty.

Still, it’s better to stay open-hearted, acknowledge that we’re imperfect, and do our best to muddle through life doing more good and less harm.  We don’t have to behave perfectly or heroically — we just have to keep our hearts open and see what actions that leads to.

The other option is closing our hearts and pretending other people and animals are either subhuman or incapable of feeling emotion.  This leads to animal cruelty, worker exploitation, systemized oppression, slavery, and even genocide.

Estimated 1.25-1.5 Force Multiplication Effect

I’m not sure how to quantify how much of a force multiplication effect being open-hearted provides.  Just from my own experience, I would estimate at least a 25% boost to happiness and effectiveness when I practice a combination of forgiveness, gratitude, and compassion on a regular basis.  Maybe even 50% at times.

Practicing open-heartedness feels like removing roadblocks to my own energy, motivation, and love of life.

I’m not always able to manage it.  Sometimes I get angry at somebody, or fixated on something, and I need to pull out the big guns to manipulate my mental state.  I’ll talk about manipulating submodalities in a later post.

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