J.D. Moyer

science fiction author, beatmaker, against fascism

Grind vs. Inspiration

Romance writer Leigh Michaels wrote that “Waiting for inspiration is like standing at the airport waiting for a train.” I completely agree. I choose to show up, more days than not, and put in the work. There’s nothing wrong with taking breaks and resting, but it’s all too easy to let the breaks stretch into stagnant periods of inactivity.

Inspiration is real, but you have to sneak up on it. Or invite it into your life. Or make a nice nest for it. There’s no one method; you have to create your own system. What inspires you is different than what inspires me or anybody else.

Maybe there are some common factors. Setting aside the time and protecting it (which sometimes requires a little selfishness, but is just as often about reducing our own self-distracting tendencies). Something to stimulate your brain: novelty, a new location, reading a great book, socializing. Creating a comfortable work environment (but not so comfortable that you get sleepy, or so ideal that you never achieve it).

Mostly it’s about showing up and struggling with your project’s next hurdle or problem. Characters, plot, structure, theme. Melody, bassline, chord progression, syncopation, mixdown, mastering. Creative work is an endless series of puzzles to be solved.

Creative work is non-homeostatic. It’s the expenditure of energy that your brain would rather conserve. It doesn’t need to be painful, but it’s rarely easy or effortless, even a flow state. That’s why they call it work.

I admire authors that produce and publish in great quantities. Piers Anthony, who I read when I was first starting to enjoy reading. He’s 91 and still publishing a book almost every year! Leigh Michaels, who published dozens of romance novels, then switched to historical fiction and is still going strong at 71. Stephen King, ’nuff said. I don’t think I’ll ever publish that many books–I got too late a start. But I do aspire to be that productive with however many years I have left, and I hope I have at least a few capable decades in me.

On the other hand, if I push myself too hard, I can feel my mental and physical health start to suffer. Creativity becomes un-fun. I become too reliant on caffeine to wind-up and alcohol to unwind. Exercise and socializing get short shrift. If you get up at 5:30 every morning and write two-thousand words without fail, but die of a heart attack in your fifties or sixties, that’s not really winning.

So what’s the balance? Word count quotas are helpful, but I don’t beat myself up if I don’t hit them. Sure, Stephen King wrote 2000 words per day, including holidays, without fail, for decades. But he’s also struggled with serious drug addictions. Maybe those two things are related, maybe not, but there’s always a cost to pushing yourself really hard. Often it’s worth it. But not always. Every artist has to make that decision for themselves, every day.

Showing up and struggling with the next problem, more days than not, keeps me honest, and I feel that it’s good for my mental and spiritual health. The endless quixotic quest for more and more artistic success is a fun side quest, but the daily work already pays for itself.

650 and counting…

Recently I got curious as to how many electronic music tracks I’ve actually released into the world, including all my aliases, every compilation and remix, etc. For our record label, I have a database, but I didn’t have a list of my own published tracks. I do have a Discography page, but it doesn’t include track names, and I’m pretty sure it has some mistakes and omissions.

So I created a spreadsheet. Take a peek if you’re curious. 650 tracks, including a few that aren’t out yet! I knew there were a lot, but I might have guessed three or four hundred before I made the list.

How many of those are actually good? Well, we (me, Spesh, Mark Musselman, and my other collaborators) thought all of them were good, or even great, at the time we were producing and releasing them. I would say the world agreed with us in a handful of cases, and all those involved some good luck (a famous DJ playing the track, or a famous game commissioning music from us). Jondi & Spesh – We Are Connected stands out, as does Momu – The Dive. But I like to think there are still some gamers out there that remember unlocking the boss track Max 300 – Super Max Me Mix in Dance Dance Revolution. And some of our more recent release are even getting a little traction on Spotify with some very modest playlist promotion (legit ones, not bots!). Like Momu – Infinite Torus.

But mostly I still do it because it’s fun to make music with my friends and put it out in the world.

With that in mind, there’s a new Jondi & Spesh release out now on Beatport. Hope you enjoy, and if you purchase any of my music I’m extremely grateful.

 

Maybe It’s Really Difficult to Enact a Fascist Takeover of the United States

As the felon-in-chief and his murderous henchmen feebly grasp for unfettered authoritarian rule, it’s becoming increasingly evident that enacting a fascist takeover the of United States is as easy as cajoling a clowder of cats to march in lockstep in full military gear.

Here are the factors working against the current administration’s fascist fantasies:

How to Destroy Fascism from the Comfort of Your Own Home

The reigning administration and its most rabid supporters can’t be shamed and can’t be reasoned with. We’ve learned that. Watching clear video evidence of a citizen being murdered for defending a woman who was assaulted, the conservative talking point is “Well, you shouldn’t bring a gun to a protest.” Alex Pretti had a permit for his holstered firearm, and open carry is legal in Minnesota. Pretti was executed, probably because he was defending a woman, reminding the ICE goons what honorable behavior looks like. They were triggered, lost control of their emotions, and murdered him. But MAGA is in too deep to see with their own eyes.

Also, the chaotic evil violence is part of Stephen Miller’s playbook. Murder citizens until they retaliate violently. Then invoke the Insurrection Act, call off the election, and advance the Fourth Reich (Corporate Rule). They’re so unpopular at this point, it’s the only way they can maintain power. They know it and they’re saying it out loud (imagine a link to Curtis Yarvin’s blog here).

I’m all for showing up at No Kings marches, and for liberals exercising 2A. But the most effective way to fight U.S. fascism and the billionaire tech Nazis who support it is much easier. Destroy them the same way we destroyed apartheid in South Africa.

Make them poorer.

The thing is, we don’t even have to bankrupt them. They absolutely cannot tolerate being even a tiny bit poorer. For the obscenely rich, two percent poorer is a really bad day. Five percent poorer is a fucking emergency–they’re calling Trump on his personal mobile to ask him what the fuck he’s going to do about it. Any poorer than that and they’re running for their bunkers and safe rooms, hitting red buttons, activating whatever insane contingency plans they have that probably involve private jets, islands, and underground kale farms. They just can’t handle it.

So how do we do it?

My Chat with Claude

I’m pretty much a non-user of AI. I avoid it when I can, partially out of ethical objections (AI is being rolled out with all the care of a 1950s cigarette campaign, with zero caution or consideration of potential harm), and partially due to unreliability (AI generates responses based on statistical probability without any capacity for fact checking, and regularly makes incorrect statements with complete confidence). But I’m also writing about AI in my current work-in-progress novel, so I try to keep up with the meta.

For that reason, I downloaded Claude and asked it where Gary Gygax went wrong. Claude gave an impressive, in-depth response, summarizing where Gygax might have gone wrong in terms of business decisions, game design, and a resistance to changing values and norms among RPG players (less misogyny and racism). Then Claude asked for clarification–what was I getting at?

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