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Empowering Action vs. Depression

Recently I read Steve Pavlina’s post “What It’s Like Being Me”. Steve really enjoys being himself, it seems, and part of my reaction was a slow clap — good for you, you smug vegan, your life is so great. But on the other hand, I really like Steve and his writing has benefited me immensely over the years. He’s worked hard to develop systems to improve his life systems and states of consciousness, and I don’t actually begrudge him his positive mental state and enjoyment of life. Good for him (no sarcasm).

Steve’s take on depression did make me wonder if he understands the condition as a disease. He appears to regard depression as a poor life choice, writing that he is repulsed by depression, and that he simply chooses to not be depressed himself. I don’t want to take his words out of context, so here’s a direct quote from the post:

Two Small Pieces of Good News

The world is burning in a thousand ways, but making and appreciating art is what keeps me sane and sometimes even happy. I have two things to share in that area, one related to music, the other to fiction writing.

First, my new two-track release with Spesh is out today on Beatport, Organic Broccoli Florets and Your Ice. I’m so pleased with the way this release came out. With both tracks, we tried for a smooth, silky, hypnotic feel. Initial feedback from our promo pool has been excellent, and Beatport is featuring the release in its Hype Picks section. Hope you enjoy, if melodic house is your cup of tea.

Secondly, a novella I’ve been working on for months was just accepted for publication. Contract pending, so I’ll hold off on the details, but I’m elated with the home this story has found. So something on the release schedule for 2023.

Personally, life has been quiet, very little drama, which is just how I like it. Had a great time with Kia and a good friend at the Exploratorium After Dark last night, which was the biggest night out in awhile.

I hope that your own life is just how you like it, and that you’re doing what you can to put out one or more of the planet’s many fires.

Life Update August 2022

I don’t currently have any big ideas I need to share, but I thought I would post a quick update anyway.

Entertainment

I’m playing Elden Ring on the PS5, and loving it. This game is truly a masterpiece by Hidetaka Miyazaki, and George RR Martin’s influence shines through as well. I’m well over a hundred hours in, and not even halfway through the game. Honestly my sleep and productivity are suffering a little, but this game is a once-in-a-generation art experience*, and you’re a fool to miss it.

*Credit for the “art experience” framing goes to my friend Abi.

I flew up to Seattle for the weekend to play at GoFest. I used free miles and got a good rate at the Hotel Crocodile (a great place to stay if you don’t mind the noise, and I’m a night owl so it didn’t bother me). I do realize traveling to participate in a Pokemon GO event is full-nerd, but I’ve never claimed otherwise.

I’m reading Arkady Martine’s A Memory Called Empire and enjoying it very much, as well as Neal Stephenson’s Termination Shock. The latter is slow going, but I’m curious enough to finish it after I’m done with the former.

Writing

I’m working on a new short story What Does the Mushroom Want, a mystery-horror-sci-fi piece that takes place in the Pacific Northwest. My far-future cuttlefolk novella The Discovery at Alexandria is out for submission. My science fiction novel Saint Arcology is currently being read by my mother (my regular 2nd draft reader, she always has great feedback, thanks Mom!).

Road Trip

We got in the car (including the dog) and drove to Oregon. Short hops, no more than four hours in the car per day, and lots of visits with friends along the way. We all got along pretty well considering the tight quarters and stresses of traveling. One highlight for me was visiting friends in Portland I hadn’t seen for many years. And there were more friends in Portland I would have looked up if we’d had more time. I can definitely see the appeal of Portland life, and moving there has crossed my mind from time to time. But ultimately I have too many roots in the Bay Area, and I’m loving the San Francisco high-rise life.

Another highlight was visiting Bandon, Oregon, where my family spent many summers when I was a kid. I drove out to Bill Creek Road and took a peek at the lot where we built our cabin. The cabin is gone, replaced by a two-story house, but the surrounding woods are the same. I thought about my childhood friend Pat Lasswell, whose family had built a house on the neighboring property. Pat passed away in 2015, and we never knew each other as adults (just as well maybe — I think we probably leaned in different directions politically), but in the 80’s he was the older kid who introduced me to to D&D and other RPGs, as well as Lord of the Rings. In his obituary I read that he was a huge science fiction fan and regular attendee of Orycon.

Miss you Pat–you had an outsized influence on my life direction, and never knew. I wish I had reached out and told you that when I had the chance.

Well, didn’t mean to end on a sad note, but I never know where these posts are going. I’ll think I’ll leave this one here and write another one soon to cover some other life categories.

I’ve Made a Mistake

I’ve made a mistake, and I’m regretting it.

A few months ago I made a work commitment, saying yes when I should have said “no thank you.” And now I’m regretting it. I’m working more than I want to, I’m attending far too many meetings, and I have less time for my hobbies and other non-work activities I enjoy (including writing this blog).

It helps to actually own the fact that I messed up. The situation isn’t terrible — I’ll fulfill my work commitments and then my schedule will eventually lighten up. But I’m going to be grinding for at least a few more weeks, and probably for a few more months.

It’s been awhile since I’ve felt that my consulting work has been in the “sweet spot”. I wonder if the solution is moving away from freelance work toward a completely passive income model. We could move somewhere like Costa Rica and live off of rents, dividends, and royalties effective immediately.

But we tried living in Costa Rica. I didn’t like it. There were too many mosquitos, everyone walked around carrying a machete, and the internet cable disappeared into the jungle.

How I’m Protecting my Writing Time (and Sanity)

In 2020 my freelance consulting work crashed. Though none of my clients went out of business, many scaled back their operations and/or new software development dramatically in response to the pandemic. This, combined with a steady downward trend in the type of consulting work I’d been doing for many years, resulted in a very slow work year with far fewer billable hours than I needed to cover my expenses.

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